I haven’t been blogging like I should. When this opportunity was brought to me, I had no idea how much time and dedication it required. But the response I get from the blogs and the encouragement I’m able to give to people…it makes it all worth it!
This post is really special to me. As a mother, I worry about my children. I think about them constantly when they’re not with me. Since Chance has been gone, even though I know she’s in heaven, I wonder what she’s doing. How she’s doing. I wonder these things even though I know that heaven is a beautiful place and that’s where we’re all trying to go.
So if you’re in my circle of friends, you know that I ask these questions all the time. I ask, “what is she doing in heaven?” I know that people are in a constant state of worship. But Chance was only 2 1/2 years old. So I wonder how she can praise and worship. It got me down on a lot of days because I miss her and as a mother I worry. We’re so used to them physically being with us and when they leave us, the entire order of life is thrown off. They’re supposed to bury us. Not the other way around.
Well Sunday night I got a message on Facebook from Tiffany Smith-Hampton. I know Tiffany but I don’t know her. We’ve never really had conversations but I know that’s changed forever. What she said to me, I KNOW it came from God because she didn’t know anything about Sydney Chance. Here’s her message…(she gave me the ok to post it)…
“Hey Keisha* how are you? I have been wanting to share something with you for awhile, but I asked The Lord to let me know when would be the right time….but I wanted to tell you that a few days after your angel passed The Lord showed me a vision of her while in prayer. In the vision she was in a room..and in that room she was dancing in a white dress back and forth across the floor before the throne of God!! She was so beautiful and it was so peaceful she was worshipping and dancing nonstop with a big beautiful smile like she never wanted it to end….idk if she liked to dance, but that was sent to comfort you. I’ve been afraid bc I don’t want to make things harder, but I want to be obedient so I wanted to let you know as you probably already know that she is at peace! There is no other place she would rather be but in the presence of God! Be Blessed His strength is made perfect in our weakness. Don’t try to do it all and rush your healing sometimes when we rush doing things we tend to leave out things or miss a spot…we rush to get through it because its a challenging process or its hard or we don’t enjoy going through it, but God wants to do it all for you! he wants you to let him walk with you, carry you, and even drag you through it if He has to! But i guarantee when God does a job he never misses a spot! Hold on to Him and don’t let go! Love you!”
Now when I got that, the tears of joy and relief came! Like I said, Tiffany didn’t know Chance. But Chance would sing and Dance ANYWHERE!! So can you imagine a baby praising and worshipping God? Can you imagine that perfect peace? Can you imagine being at the throne and feet of God? Well now I can! I know my baby is excellent. She’s happy and if she had the opportunity she wouldn’t come back here. Why would she? She’s in the best place ever. So for me, that message was confirmation that God knows what he’s doing. My baby is fine. And now, I don’t worry. I just miss her physically. But I don’t want her back anymore. I want to go where she is!!!! You want to go where she is!!
My Aunt Linda also told me how high God regards children. In order for us to get to heaven we have to come to him like little children. Matthew 18; 1-6 says “About that time the disciples came to Jesus and asked, “Who is greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven?” Jesus called a little child to him and put the child among them. Then he said, “I tell you the truth, unless you turn from your sins and become like little children, you will never get into the Kingdom of Heaven. So anyone who becomes as humble as this little child is the greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven. “And anyone who welcomes a little child like this on my behalf is welcoming me. But if you cause one of these little ones who trusts in me to fall into sin, it would be better for you to have a large millstone tied around your neck and be drowned in the depths of the sea. (Matthew 18:1-6 NLT)
I know she’s fine. And like I say, God knows when and what you need. When you need it. So when a child dies, we should be praising and rejoicing!! We know that God loves them! We miss them but God loves them so much more. And that peace that I need, he gave to me. So thank you Tiffany!! To God be the glory!!! Your message came right on time!
Well I need to get my day started but I wanted to share what I was feeling this morning. That peace that surpasses all understanding!
I hope you all have “another day and another ‘Chance'” to get it right!!